-~-~-Interlude Start!-~-~- *** Lucca (dinner@ACA44EEE.ipt.aol.com) has joined #pureland *** ChanServ sets mode: +o Lucca << ^^ >> «ooc: ...There's been three ludes already? O_o » «ooc: No. » «ooc: ;) » «ooc: Okay :o » << Has there been two? ^^;; >> «ooc: No. » «ooc: I just like threes » << Let's start with a word.. like Milk! And then Sponge! I like sponges! Maybe we can add a picture! It's my brother! Ha! Ha! >> >> Night comes none too soon for the Mana Knights, each going seperate ways for a much-needed rest... Rahne is left in her normal quiet solitude, as usual. As the night wanes on and crickets begin to chirp... «ooc: Go ahead and pose ^^; » * Rahne quietly stoppers a small vial of ink, packing that and her diary away in her satchel as she now goes about finding her bedclothes and getting readty to sleep.. * << ready to sleep, rather. Hmm... readty.. bleh.. >> «ooc: I caught it ;) » >> Rahne hears an ever-so-quiet knock on the door, along with incoherent muttering. * Rahne stuffs her daywear into the satchel as the knock comes, her ears rising out of habit, she quickly smooths out her nighty.. * ..Yes? What is it? * Chrys coughs lightly and speaks up, sounding slightly hesitant on the other side of the door. "Rahne? May I speak with you for a moment...?" I uh.. just a minute! ^^; Uhm, okay! ^^; * Rahne throws herself into the bed, burying herself under a mountain of covers leaving only her head peeking out. * Kay.. You may come in, Mister Chrys, it's not locked. * Chrys opens the door slowly and looks in, blinking and wideeyeing. "Um...did I interrupt something...? I can leave..." ^^;;; No.. it's okay. I was just getting ready for bad was all.. What is it I can do for you? << arg! bed! Dammit. ;_; >> * Chrys sighs, closing his eyes and walking forward, kneeling down by Rahne's bed. "Firstly, I want to apologize about how I've been acting as of late... I know by your general manner that you probably feel I should go crawl under some rock somewhere and die.." * Rahne sighs.. * You shouldn't concern yourself with the thoughts of what others may think. It doesn't suit you. *** Lucca (dinner@ACA44EEE.ipt.aol.com) Quit (Quit: BRB!) * Chrys chuckles quietly to himself. "Yeah, I shouldn't concern myself with how others think. Rahne, that's what brought about the incident in Pandora. All I cared about was my growing jealousy for Cody.. I didn't stop to think about how he felt about any of it." *** Lucca (dinner@AC8DFD36.ipt.aol.com) has joined #pureland *** ChanServ sets mode: +o Lucca You shouldn't berate yourself as you do.. perhaps it's just that this aspect of your personality is very much ingrained on your being. Being self-conscious isn't a terribly fun thing. And the regret only brings sadness, not the acceptance you seek.. ... (m) Rahne, do you ever listen to what you say...? «ooc: I feel that to be a case of "you can hear it if you want to" sort of thing ^^; » << Rahne hears. She's got the big-ass ears, remember? ^^; >> «ooc: I figured. ^^ » * Rahne 's ears fold back.. * That doesn't matter any. The issue here isn't me. ...I keep forgetting how well you can hear.. -_- And besides, if the issue here wasn't you, I'd probably be apologizing to Cody right now. To tell you the truth, apologizing is only half the reason I came here.. <> «ooc: O_o That would explain the mood swings. It's just PMS! » ..so.. the issue is me..? No. There is no issue... I just...came here to ask you something. ..I see. Rahne...please. Don't get that way with me...I don't want you upset at me... * Rahne sighs.. * ..I'm not upset.. You sound like you just want me to ask so I can leave. -_- <> «ooc: And it's always the psycho ones! First Rachel, now you! » * Rahne shakes her head.. * No.. I'm just exasperated at all the assumptions people make.. Everyone's sure I feel this way, and that way, or some other way. ... Fine, I won't assume. * Chrys sighs and sits down, leaning against the far wall. "Rahne, you were Joch's apprentice, right?" * Rahne nods, failing to understand the reasoning behind a question to which everyone knows the answer.. * How did you feel during the time you were...? Comfortable most of the time, I suppose. This was before I'd traveled, so Mandala was my whole world. * Chrys shakes his head. "I think you misunderstand me. How'd you feel about your life... in general?" Not just about being his apprentice. It depends.. it had it's high points, and it had it's low points.. ...Was it better then than now? It was simpler then. * Chrys looks down, mumbling. "Simpler..." * Rahne waits silently, expectantly.. * * Chrys looks up. "Rahne, after all this is over and the world's put back together..." ..what then..? ...you think I could be your apprentice? «ooc: Ooh! » * Rahne 's heart skips a beat and eyes nearly bulge right out of her face.. * My.. my.. apprentice?! Goddess, Chrys! I'm seventeen! I don't even know where my life is headed, much less am I ready to take on steering that of another. * Chrys sighs, resting his head on his knees. "I shouldn't have expected anything more than that... will you at least consider it, though...?" * Rahne pauses for a moment, trying to absorb the rammifications of this totally unexpected revelation * ..Why..? Why would you want to become my apprentice..? Several reasons. One, if we get this all figured out, my current skills are worthless. After all, in a peaceful world, nobody needs any street rabble thief like myself. Two, I have some things I could learn from you... like how to conduct myself in public, how to keep my personal life out of more important business... Three, well, I guess MY life could be a whole lot...simpler... But I should've realized what I was asking... *sigh* It's not such a bad thing to ask, Chrys.. ..but why me? Miss Lukka or Master Belguteii are far, far more qualified teachers. They've much more experience, and certainly more to teach. The only reason I'm not an apprentice myself is because Master Joch died.. That...I guess that's the fourth reason... I still have feelings for you, Rahne. I want to be with you, and that's the only way I could think of that didn't get...horribly messy. <> * Rahne sighs, closing her eyes.. * I know.. ..and that's why, right now, I couldn't take you on as an apprentice. It's a terrible, terrible thing to follow someone though thick and thin because you love them and those feelings don't get returned. I learned this the hard way.. ... <> * Chrys stands up, lightly, mumbling. "Fine, Rahne... I'm sorry to have disturbed you..." «ooc: No comment whatsoever. » I'm sorry, Chrys.. but how am I supposed to answer? How cruel would I be to do such a thing to you.. It hurts me more to hear your refusal, because that just basically says you don't want me around. * Chrys shrugs. "I get the hint though. I won't bother you any more, Rahne." No.. it says that you need to get your feelings all sorted out before you even consider such a thing. This is serious, Chrys. My feelings -are- sorted out. That's the problem. If I hadn't wanted you around, of didn't want to talk to you, you wouldn't be in this room right now. You're assuming again. ... We're both assuming things here, Rahne. Let's just leave it at that. No. What good would that do? It just leaves a whole mess of things unresolved. Only one thing needs to be resolved, Rahne. * Chrys reaches in a back pocket pulling out a small yellow rose and dropping it on Rahne's bed. "Here. This is to apologize for hurting you and Cody so much. I shan't be a bother to you again." * Chrys turns and starts slowly for the door, holding back a few tears. * Rahne massages her forehead.. * ..Chrys.. ...Yes? ..I'm sorry.. Don't be. You can't control how you feel, I can't control how I feel. It's human emotion and it screws us over every time. I've learned that in life. ..then you shouldn't be sorry, either. Maybe I shouldn't. But it seemed like the proper thing to do. Until you can accept apology for the mistakes of others, you should not be apologizing for mistakes you only feel you've made.. If you feel that this is some horrible, terrible cosmic joke, you shouldn't be apologizing for it. * Chrys looks over his shoulder, something visibly changed in the tone of his voice. "Maybe I'm apologizing for my existance.." «ooc: ...obviously would be a better word. » «ooc: visibly, voice.. i'm an idiot :d » «ooc: And my shift key doesn't work » ..that doesn't change the thing about accepting.. ... You know, Rahne, sometimes I can't tell if you're trying to help me or drive me insane. * Rahne can only sigh again.. * * Chrys looks at Rahne, losing a bit of his edge... "I'm sorry..." Stop that.. ..I told you. -_-; I know. You can apologize, if you want, but make it for something that you actually consciously did. I already apologized... and if all you're gonna do is apologize for a series of things you maintain that you have no control over, then don't apologize to me. ... Rahne... Before I go... Will you humor one last small request? ..that depends.. ...You probably wouldn't, then. Come here, Chrys.. * Chrys blinks, slowly approaching Rahne's bed and kneeling down again. "Yeah?" * Rahne reaches up, and gently kisses him on the cheek.. * You are a good man, Chrys Souryuu.. * Chrys stutters, a hot blush slowly covering his face. "Uhm...thanks..." * Rahne sinks back down, adjusting her blankets a bit.. * ..I should get some sleep.. * Chrys nods, returning the kiss lightly before standing up. "So should I... Thanks for putting up with a schmuck like me, Rahne..." * Rahne sniffs, and shakes her head.. * Good night, Chrys.. Good night... * Chrys walks out, casually placing something on a far table before closing the door behind him... * Rahne sighs, and slumps backwards.. * Oh, Goddess... «ooc: You have anything else? » << No.. I think that's a good place to end. I need to sleep soon also. ^^; >> -~-~-Session End..-~-~-