Session Start: Tue Jul 31 02:04:47 2001 * Logging #Pureland to 'logs\#pureland1.log' Some time has passed since the horrifying scene at the Brodeur mansion, the broken scenery of the Kingdom Pandora replaced by the rustic and comforting villa of Kippo. Cody came home to find the house empty, considering his parents are in South Lookout Fort, and set about to fixing some of the mess that the quakes left the inn & general store, and putting Rachel to rest in his room upstairs. *** Windy_Mute (mikemccart@cs2734-20.austin.rr.com) has joined #Pureland «ooc: Tra lala ^^ Do I pose? » « sure, youc an take it from here.. » *** Ashton (flare_star@lsanca1-ar7-217-170.lsanca1.dsl.gtei.net) has joined #Pureland *** ChanServ sets mode: +o Ashton *** Chrys (flare_star@lsanca1-ar7-217-170.lsanca1.dsl.gtei.net) Quit (Killed (NickServ (GHOST command used by Ashton))) * Cody rummages through one of the drawers downstairs, pulling out a few dried herbs he can use for some of Rachel's more nasty injuries *** Ashton is now known as Chrys «ooc: I kill! » «ooc: What did I miss? » «ooc: Damn you! ;_; » « did you see my intro? » « other than that nothing really. ^^ » * Chrys watches Cody from a slightly shadowed corner, undetected until he speaks up. "She okay?" Cody finds the store is still well stocked downstairs.. his father ever the businessman. * Cody grabs some of of the herbs from the drawer, jumping slightly at hearing Chrys' voice until he turns towards him, "...She's still pretty hurt. She's sleeping upstairs..." * Chrys sighs and looks down at the floor near Cody's feet. "...No worse than could be expected.." * Cody nods quietly, looking grim, "...We got to her in time though...Physically...she should recover..." ... Did you understand what I meant earlier? I'm sorry if I thought you misunderstood, but I doubt you understood it quite how I meant it.. ...No...No I'm not sure what you meant. I...I was just trying to stall for time.... And you ended up stabbing the man right through the stomach. Was it intentional, self-defense, or just one of those heroic coincidences, hmm? ...You think I stabbed him? O_o...Chrys, he THREW himself on it trying to choke me! *** Windy_Mute is now known as Windstar ...So that'd be the last one. I...I guess so...Believe me, I thought about attacking him, but then I wouldn't be much different from Kurik in the long run... ...No, you'd be different. You'd be like me. That's all I want to avoid. You don't deserve to have Kurik's blood or anyone's on your hands. ...With this profession...That might be really hard to do... I don't want to hurt anyone... ...That's what the rest of us are here for. ...I don't want to put that much burden on you all...You've been through enough. ...Cody... No. It's not a fucking burden. No more than anything else on me. Then what about people like Tori? Or Rahne? What about them? Tori... heheh... * Chrys looks up, his eyes meeting Cody's. "Tori's more fucked up than the rest of us combined." ...And all of this probably isn't helping... Couldn't hurt. He's actually got friends now. * Cody nods slowly, "I suppose so..." Chrys...you know...Just because you don't want me to shed blood doesn't mean you're obligated to, either. ...Obligated? Pah. Cody, answer me one question. Are you human? ...I think so. I mean, mostly. ^^; Half elf...but let's not split hairs. Yes, I'm human.. ...You bleed, right? Yes. Then you're going to shed blood in your life. Your blood, and the blood of others. That's just how life is. I'm not saying I don't want you to deny nature. I'm saying I don't want you to kill someone in cold blood, as it were. I don't want you to do that either is what I'm saying Chrys. * Chrys shakes his head and smiles, seeming slightly aggressive. "Sorry, Cod'. Once you start falling down the path I have, you just keep falling. It will happen eventually." You only fall down that path if you let yourself fall... ... Are you really so cut-and-paste storybook that you believe that? Sure, there's some things that you can control in life. However, that doesn't mean you can control everything. *** Windstar (mikemccart@cs2734-20.austin.rr.com) Quit (Quit: Hikari no kaze) I don't know...all I know is that when I was in the stream, I had control. A part of me wanted to stay...to run away from everything and not go back. I was free falling then...but...but... ...There were too many things here I had to do. Too many people who I cared about too much to abandon. Mmhmm. Going down this path may lead to to someplace where you can't go back and help the ones you care about, Chrys. ...The ones I care about. Funnnnny. ...You don't care about anyone? * Chrys raises an eyebrow. "Who's to care about? Don't have any friends." That's bunk. You have me, Rachel, Rahne, Emerald... You've proven time and again that you hate me and are just too damn nice and perfect to admit it. Rachel is probably afraid of me. Rahne's too infatuated with you to realize that there's other people in the world, and Em just gives a damn about me because I'm another head to camp out in. Next? « oh that hurts.. :( » You honestly think I hate you? I don't! Neither does Rachel. And Emerald isn't like that...she can't help that, Chrys... «ooc: ^^ Heh. He does agree about Rahne though :p » «ooc: Sorry, Baha ^^ » «ooc: Baha's not here ^^; » ...Mmmmmhm. I didn't say Rachel hates me. ...I think Rachel is sort of afraid of everyone right now...That's to be expected...Unfortunately...-_-; * Cody sighs and leans against the wall, suddenly looking very worn and worried. And I don't care how you feel, Cody. I see it in how you act around me. You just want me to get out of the way so that you can do things without screwing up. Chrys, If I really felt that way, I wouldn't be talking to you right now. Then what's that worn-out tone in your voice? You just wish I'd shut up so you could go and check on your Rachel. No...I'm just tired...-_-; It's not you... * Chrys raises his eyebrow. So you -do- get tired. It's not just an act. ...An act? Huh? Don't play coy. No...I really don't know what...Wait...You think I'm faking being tired? Sympathy ploy would be a more appropriate way of saying it. * Cody balks a bit, "You...honestly think I'd DO that?" No. I honestly, again, think you're too pure and perfect for a lie like that. But it's surprising that, you, of all people would get tired. ...I'm human like you, Chrys.... ...I know you are. Then why...? * Chrys laughs hollowly. "Why what? Why do I feel that way about you? You do know that messiahs, gods... masquerade as humans without even their hosts knowing. You were just the lucky one this time." «ooc: BRB!! » «ooc: OKAY!! » «ooc: Back. » * Cody , surprisingly or not, looks crushed at that statement "...I'm no messiah. Please don'tt hink of me that way...please...-_-; * Chrys shakes his head. "Then tell me, where's the rest of the mana in this world?" * Chrys slowly steps forward. "Where's the Goddess?" ...Where do you think. I...I don't know! Of course you don't. You're probably the only one who doesn't. It's not in me! If it was, I wouldn't have failed in the Purelands! I wouldn't have! ... * Chrys chuckles, putting a hand lightly on Cody's shoulder. "Heh...you don't believe in fate, do you?" In what way...? You don't believe that things can happen just because they have to. ...That shouldn't have happened...If I was fated to be the Gemma...I should have saved everyone... ... You still will, Cody. But will it be too late? How many more people are going to die because of my failure, Chrys...? Only as many as were fated to. ...Then no...I don't believe in fate. Because...I don't beleive people are fated to die because someone up there said the should... «ooc: they » * Chrys smirks, smile dripping venom. "Then, in that case, everything's your fault." ... Is that what you want to here? «ooc: hear. » * Cody shrinks back from that smile, looking as if someone kicked him in the stomach. A lot. I...I don't know... What do you know, Cody? I'm not sure what you're asking... * Chrys sighs. "Never mind..." * Chrys raises an eyebrow. "I'm sorry about saying that, then." No...Really, what do you mean? I mean a lot of things. That's pretty cryptic... Mainly... why do you keep fighting? Why do you keep trudging on, playing the hero, when all it does is bring you pain? You don't really know what you're doing, do you? * Cody looks down at the ground, "...A part of me wants to run...but there are people I care about...people that are worth fighting for. For me, anyway..." So you'd die if those people could live? ...Yes. «ooc: Note: He sounds certain, but sorta scared at the same time ^^ » * Chrys shakes his head, leaning against the wall. "Foolish." Foolish? W-why? Look at Rachel. Look at Rahne. If I do nothing, the world will unravel anyway... * Chrys stares at the cieling. "If you die, then you've done more of an injustice to them than letting them die." ...And what about my parents? The people I've met on the way. And you? Ditto the first two. * Chrys laughs. "Forget me. It'll be better for you." ...I...I don't think... * Cody puts a hand to his forehead. ...Exactly. That's what makes you different from me. You don't think. You act. ...and what you did to Kurik today was thinking? Yes. My attack was planned. I didn't want you to be burdened with the death of that bastard. I've killed before, on the other hand, so another death would mean nothing to my soul. ...I don't fully believe that statement... I just...don't. I don't know why... Don't know why what? Why you don't think it would mean nothing? ...You aren't as bad as you play yourself out to be Chrys. You only think you're worthless because you deny any friendship given to you. You've got that backwards. I don't think so. * Chrys takes out one of his daggers and thrusts it into the wall of the inn. "I deny any friendship given to me because I'm worthless." * Cody jumps back from the daggers, "You'e not!' Oh, really. And tell me in what way I compare to you? Or to any of you? You have a heart. You went out of your way to make Rahne feel better...To protect Rachel. I've seen it. You aren't as bad as you paint yourself to be. Mmmmmmmmmhm. And in the end, who gets the attention? * Chrys glares at Cody. ...What do you want me to do, Chrys? Dissapear? I'm not trying to take attention away from anyone... What do I want you to do? Wrong question/. «ooc: -/ » Then what? The question you should ask, Cody, is, "Why am I acknowleging Chrys's existence when even my precious Rachel isn't?" Why bother with me? Are you that much of a fucking all-around good guy? Rachel cares about you. You're the one pushing her away. ... You think she stopped? Don't see why she wouldn't. She has anything she'd ever need in you. Geez Chrys, why don't you keep kicking yourself over and over. You're just as stubborn as Rahne. You're not listening to anything I'm saying. Yes, I am. I hear everything you say. You're saying that people care about me. That I'm not worthless. I'm listening. I just don't believe you/ «ooc: -/ +. » That's your choice. But it's the truth. ...Maybe you should ask Rachel these questions once she's recovered. ...If she wants me to ask, she'll confront me. Once she's recovered, she might not feel safe talking to anyone but you. ...I didn't say it'd be instant recovery here... Of course not. It never is. It's bound to be a long and eventful recovery, laden with tons of self-pitying moping. I've seen it with Rahne, and I've seen it with you. ...and you. * Chrys smirks. "No, not with me." You know, Chrys. It's sad. Here you're free from Hawk and have your life, but you act as if you're the one destined to die, not me. ...I almost wish I had Hawk back. He took over when I got out of control. ...Then get that control back. Cody. This isn't a fucking fairy tale. Things don't always get better. Live with it. Then make it better. * Chrys tenses. Cody..? ...Yes? «ooc: Chrys: *tenses more* ...It burns when I pee.... » You should go back to Rachel. She needs you. * Cody nods a bit more, "Please don't forget what I said..." I...won't. .oO(Go on, git. Before I whap you upside your self-pretentious nice-guy head.) Feel free to use any of the beds upstairs to get some sleep...It's been a long day. * Chrys nods. "Very long. But I'd prefer to stay away from people for a while. Isn't there some sort of ruined castle near here...?" There's Elinee's castle. It's about an hour away from here. That's it. If you need me, I'll be there. ...Okay... Be careful, Chrys. Fine. You too. Keep Rachel safe. I will. * Cody grabs the herbs he left on the counter, and starts to head upstairs, "Goodbye, Chrys..." « Hmm.. » * Chrys nods as he starts out, not saying a word. * Cody stops for a moment, and shakes his head, "...You're bringing about your own end Chrys. It's...not entirely us..." * Cody sighs tiredly, and resumes his trek upstairs. «ooc: ^^ End » ~~ INTERLUDE END ~~ Session Close: Tue Jul 31 04:06:50 2001