Session Start: Fri Jun 08 19:54:15 2001 * Logging #Pureland to 'logs\#Pureland.log' Take it away! :D == Session Begin! == The day presses onwards. Outside the people continue to rebuild their shattered lives, a long and arduous process. For one girl however, her life remains very much in shambles. The pieces of which she is somewhat unwilling to pick up. Cody is now on the slow but steady road to recovery, resting in bed with the comforting warmth of the very close Rachel. The door to Cody's silent cabin breaks the silence, as it creaks slowly open... * Rahne winces at the noise as she peers in, stifling a gasp as her eyes fall upon the sleeping Rachel.. * * Cody stirs slightly at the noise, in the brink between sleep and wakefulness. (w) Who is it...? * Rahne perks her ears up, listening intently.. * Is someone there...? * Rahne replies flatly, but quietly. * It's me, Cody. Give me a second.. ..I won't be long.. * Cody tries to sit up, now fully awake at Rahne's voice, "Rahne...please...I need to talk to you..." * Rahne takes a deep breath, her eyes never leaving the still form of Rachel as she creeps into the room to pick up her satchel.. * Rahne...? Please...? * Rahne snorts, closing her eyes and shaking her head as she quietly replies.. * Oh.. so now I'm needed? * Rahne picks up her bag.. * I.. I didn't mean to disturb, Cody.. I just needed my things.. Rahne...No...please don't be like that...please... * Rahne 's haunted eyes flick between Cody & Rachel.. * I can't stay.. it's wrong.. something bad will happen.. What...? No...No it won't...why do you think that? * Rahne makes her way to the door, spinning around and making ready to close it again.. * ..Because that's what always happens. Always. ..Sleep well, Cody.. * Rahne closes the door.. * No! Wait! * Rahne has already vanished, now retreating down the hallway fighting the tears in her eyes.. * Ťooc: ^^ Hold on a moment ť Ťooc: Gonna fillin Storen ť *** Storen (paladin@dialin-142-tnt.nyc.bestweb.net) has joined #pureland *** ChanServ sets mode: +o Storen << Kay. :) >> <> Ť hey ^^; ť Ť hmm you used that title huh? *crosses off list* ^^ ť << It was one I was sure wasn't taken, and is one of those nice, mellow Rahne-like titles and has a good chance of being apt. Like a lesson learned. ^^;; >> Ť totally right.. please carry on... don't mind me. :) ť * Cody uses all of his energy to try to get out of bed, and manages to succeed, but his entire body is instantly wracked with pain. He only makes it about a few paces past the door before his entire body seizes up painfuly and he cries out softly, hitting the floor with a loud thud. * Cody curls up into a ball and begins to shake with quiet fustration. * Rahne halts, looking down as her satchel hits the ground.. * Goddess.. E...egh... * Rahne turns around, putting her hand on the latch she takes in another deep breath.. * Goddess please.. Please don't punish me for helping again.. * Rahne opens the door... * ..Cody.. Ťooc: actually Cody is outside his room, but only by a few steps ^^ ť << Ack. ^^; Kay. ^^; >> * Cody looks up, "Please...I just...I don't want...to hurt you...or anything...just please....I have to talk to you..." * Rahne kneels.. her soft voice going flat again.. * You spoke with your actions.. What do you...mean...? You dragged me back here.. back here to nothing but suffering.. We should get you back to your room.. Miss Rachel will probably do something terrible if she catches me here with you.. No! No...No please...Don't you see? I couldn't...I couldn't let you die...I just...If I was in your position, would you let me die? Honestly...if I asked you? ..I.. ..I am letting you die.. Why do you think that? ..What happens when all this is said and done? When the chaos has been reigned in? How did we get this far to begin with..? I don't know...but we won't leave it like this. We'll fix it. Or we'll die trying, but I realize...because of what you and the others did, that I can't act as if we're already dead. We have to keep... ...we have to keep going... ..I didn't.. ..and now that I have to, I shall do nothing but suffer.. * Rahne trembles, her eyes looking up to Cody's door.. * We have to get you back.. * Cody suddenly reaches out and hugs Rahne tightly, shaking a bit, "Rahne...why...why do you keep beating yourself up? Why do you blame yourself so...shut yourself off from everyone and think you're ugly...You're none of those things...Everyone is reaching out to you...but you keep pushing them away because you're so sad..." Even Rachel is reaching out to you...even though I know she can be a little too pushy for her own good. She feels bad about hurting you... And Niki wants to see you smile again...I want to see you smile again... * Rahne begins to cry, curling her arms around him.. * ..No.. no.. you don't understand.. Then tell me. You know you can tell me anything... No.. I can't.. you're never alone.. I can never be near you.. I fail, and get hurt, if I try.. We're alone now, aren't we? :) Ť oogh.. I think I really have got to sleep some more... -_-; ť Ť You two settle this matter and send me log okay? ť Ť ^^; ť << Kay. G'night, Stor. :) >> Ťooc: Poor Storen. go sleepies ^^ ť Yes.. but I'm sure something terrible with come of it.. *** Storen (paladin@dialin-142-tnt.nyc.bestweb.net) Quit (Quit: Sorry.. I can't keep my eyes open.. just had to say hi quick... Goodnight. *hug*) Don't be scared....If Rachel comes by I'll tell her we're fine. If Miss Rachel felt bad about hurting me, she wouldn't do what she does.. but she does, over and over.. She has your heart, she has everything.. and if I want just a tiny bit.. a smile.. some comfort.. It's like she has this terrible invisible hammer that can sweep down and crush me on a whim... I don't think she realizes... I think she's just scared...She's afraid because...because Kurik was such a scary person and ...I don't think she wants to lose those she cares about. So she gets insecure. Sometimes a little pushy...But she means you no harm... You just gotta push back and say, "Hey! I'm important too ^^" And don't say you aren't because it's not true. * Rahne fights another flood of tears.. * No.. no.. I tried that once, and it just made the hurt worse.. ..so I stopped.. what's my hurt when you're happy, after all? Stop that. Don't be self-sacrifical...that doens't make me happy...frienship is a two way street... * Cody sighs a bit, "I'm sorry I snapped...but I meant what I said..." I try to be strong.. I tried.. all I wanted was a smile, and a friend.. We both know how I feel.. but I.. I tried to ignore it, but other people.. Rachel.. can't.. I can talk to her... ..and I can't do anything.. because you love her.. and I don't want to upset you.. and I'm really not.. not.. horrible enough to hurt someone like that.. Rahne... * Cody hugs her tighter. I don't want you to hurt. You're too important to me. * Rahne sobs, trembling in Cody's embrace.. * It hurts.. it hurts so much.. I just wanted it to go away... You can always talk to me. If Rachel gives you a bad time, you let me know. Love or whatnot be damned. The world doesn't just stop because Rachel is near. And she understands that too. In.. in the afterworld.. I didn't stop.. nothing stopped me from reaching you.. we'd-- we'd still be standing at that river except for how I.. I feel.. and when we reached you.. I was pushed away.. I never got to see your smile when you realized it was us.. ...I knew you were there. All of you... I smiled for all of you...You were just looking away when I smiled at you... ..I've always been by your side when your eyes are closed.. I've held your hand in mine, and told you things even though I know you can't talk back.. but the moment your eyes open.. the moment you're aware.. something always happens to me.. something terrible. You only allow it because you feel it will happen. You don't fight back.... It wasn't my smile to have.. if it was, I'd never have been tossed away.. I did look at you You were looking at the falls... I was.. but that was because I had been thrown aside.. It's.. it's so hard to explain.. And moot, now.. what does the past matter? I'm alive now.. You weren't thrown aside...I knew you were there....Chrys just scared me a lot...but I felt your warmth...I felt you trying to calm me...I felt it even when I was ill... You're right. The past doesn't matter. Now it's time to fight for the future right? Make a fresh start...? ..but always at the critical moment.. the moment of truth, when you open your eyes, or realize something.. I'm not there.. something terrible happens to me, and I don't get to see. Like a hug meant for someone that isn't there, and telling them about it later.. it's not the same.. Rahne...please...are you even listening to what I'm saying? You just assume hte worst! I have nothing to start with.. I can't fight back.. I want to.. but it'd hurt you.. make you hate me.. What could make my hate my best friend? How can I not assume the worst? I was born.. like this. And Joch has died.. and I love someone who loves another.. I have little else.. * Rahne wipes away some renewed tears.. * ..What could? Fighting back could.. Rahne...I want you to tell me one person in this group who has called you ugly because of your tail... * Rahne suddenly becomes conscious of her tail, drawing the damp and matted appendage up her back.. * ..No one.. Then why do you think that your tail now brings you misfortune? Why do you think everyone hates you because of it? They never have...They don't hate you even now. They respect you...they respect your intelligence, strength, and kindness, like I do... But what about all this terrible pain..? I didn't ask for my tail.. and I didn't ask for all this misery now.. I did nothing that should make me hurt like I do.. I didn't ask to be the gemma either...it just is the way things are...and we have to go on... * Rahne sighs, her tail relaxing and lowering her head to rest on Cody's shoulder.. * I don't know if I can get through all this.. You can...you're stronger than you think... ..I'm always so scared and miserable.. nothing seems to get better.. *** Ashton (flare_star@lsanca1-ar7-216-085.lsanca1.dsl.gtei.net) has joined #Pureland *** ChanServ sets mode: +o Ashton I'm scared too...I think time will heal everything...But you can always talk to me...always... I wish I had your faith.. I wish my own wasn't so battered and bruised.. You had it before...and you'll find it again. I have faith on that too... ..but what then..? Who can say....but I'll always support you... * Rahne hugs her dearest friend tight.. * I just don't know if this won't happen again.. There's bound to be hurts...but there's also the joy that comes after... That's part of living, you know? ..that's easy for you to say though.. You're not torn like I am.. ...I am, just in a different way... ..I just.. I.. * Rahne sighs.. * ..What am I gonna do..? Believe that people are reaching out to you...and want to help you...I mean that... And draw from that... Ťooc: er draw strength ť But what I want.. I mean.. I'm happier now than I have been in days.. weeks.. and it won't last. It can't.. I just.. I.. ..I can barely think.. * Rahne shakes her head.. * Just rest for a while, Rahne. We've all been so...so...it's just been so crazy... * Cody coughs a bit. I'm really sorry.. You shouldn't have come out here like this.. You're not hurt, are you? Honestly...? I sort of always hurt...but I'm sitting, which is resting..it just hurts when I move a lot... * Cody looks down a bit. I wish I could take your hurts away.. I wish I didn't muddle things up for you.. ..Is there anything I can do to make it better..? You're not muddling anything up... :) ...But I don't know how anyone could make it go away... But since you beat that last God Beast, I felt a little better.. ..I wonder if it's time.. or if it's the beast.. it's so hard to tell with you. I wish I knew better.. You're not cold, are you? ...A little... ^^; But don't worry about me...I'm tough. :) ..You want to stay out here in this hallway..? ^^; Well, I think Rachel is still sleeping in my room. I'd hate to wake her up, and I know you two aren't on the best terms yet. I hope time heals that for the both of you, but we'll have to wait and see... * Rahne smiles, her tail wagging the first time in what seems like forever.. * I know you are.. I'm sl glad you realized that.. * Cody smiles back. :) *** Jupiter-afk is now known as Jupiter ..If I were bigger.. I could carry you.. I'm really not sure where I'm going, myself.. I picked up my belongings because I look pretty bad.. <> Ťooc: Don't! You'll scare her away ^^ ť If you wanted to go back to Rachel, I can help you there.. I'd endure nightmare for you.. <> Maybe...if I could put my hand around your shoulder...^^ You could help me walk back? It's not very far... << endure any nightmare, rather.. ^^; >> And really...Rachel isn't that scary...she doesn't mean to hurt you, and I mean that... But take your time...if you don't want to talk to her, I can't force you... * Rahne nods, and gets one of Cody's arms around her neck.. * * Rahne gives Cody a pained look.. * No.. no what she does, she does intentionally.. I'm very sure, Cody.. * Rahne turns her attention back to getting him standing though.. * Ready to try and stand..? * Cody nods, and stands up, "...She told me she wanted to find you to apologize..." I think she was serious...I felt her emotions...and they were sad...sincere.. * Rahne makes her way along the hallway slowly, keeping careful pace with Cody.. * ..Can she.. can she lie to you..? Or do you always hear her thoughts? I only hear her thoughts...and she hears mine when I want her to...But feelings...I don't think we can hide those... She always knows what I'm feeling. I can't keep anything from her...but I usually find out what she's up to as well. ^^; * Rahne sighs.. * I wish I could be so close to you.. We have a different closeness...But it's just as strong, I think. :) Just different. ..It's why I'm your best friend, I know.. It's just as special, though. To me. * Cody smiles. ^^ * Rahne smiles too, but her eyes are very sad.. ..Rahne opens the door.. * *** Jupiter is now known as Rachel * Cody gives Rahne another supportive hug, and whispers in her ear, "Just give it time...It can only get better from here, huh? :)" * Rahne hugs him tight, whispering back.. * We'll see.. I can't help the way I.. I feel.. We'll see...but I'll always be here...always. * Cody takes a few baby steps painfully into the room ^^; * Rahne helps him to ease back into the bed, painfully aware of Rachel's close presence.. * * Rachel twitches in her sleep and utters a low whimper. (w) Thank you... * Rahne 's begins to tremble as she draws the covers back over him, she nods, though with the same sad eyes. * << - 's >> * Rachel cracks her eyes open and blinks blearily... <> * Cody smiles back at her, looking exhausted, "Come back soon, okay?" * Rahne shrinks back, just as she was going to kiss Cody on the forehead gently.. * Sleep well, Co--!! Huh...? * Rahne 's sad eyes are quickly replaced by frightful ones as she backs away from the stirring Rachel.. * No...it's okay....really...Please... * Rachel slowly lifts herself up from the bed with her forearms and blinks, not making any other moves... ...(w) Oh dear...-_-; . o O (Jeez, she looks terrified of me....) No.. no, it's not.. It is...remember what I told you...! * Rachel blinks a little at Cody and Rahne... "....uhm.....er...." <> Ťooc: Cody is so tempted to gently push her down and say, "Go back to sleep dear ^^;;" ť <> * Rahne backs out the door, giving Cody one last warm and kind, but sad look.. * No.. you don't understand.. * Rahne looks scared and miserable, as she closes the door, you can hear her footfalls as she runs down the hall.. * * Cody coughs, looking sad, "N-No..." * Rachel frowns, pushing herself off the bed... *** Scott (bmscott@PPPa28-ResaleMemphis1-1R7319.dialinx.net) Quit (Quit: going to go play PS2.) *** Scott (bmscott@PPPa28-ResaleMemphis1-1R7319.dialinx.net) has left #Pureland ....take a rest, stud. I'll be back. Wait...Rachel... She's...terrified of you... I noticed. She's afraid that...you're intentionally pushing her away from me...that...that bad things happen when you're around.. * Cody coughs more, rather harshly, "I tried...*coughcough* to tell her..." * Rachel narrows her eyes faintly and then sighs softly... "......." * Cody coughs harder. He looks visibly strained and tired. :/ Go to sleep, Cody... I'll be back to check on you....okay...? * Rachel heads for the door.. *cough* Okay... * Rachel glances back at Cody before heading outside to look for Rahne... * Cody seems to have already fallen into a slumber. * Rahne vanishes around the corner of the hallway in the distance.. * * Rachel quickly persues Rahne, moving quietly.... . o O (Intentionally? Bad things?....it's not like I can deny that....) * Rahne retreats into an apparently uninhabited cabin.. * * Rachel skids to a stop and checks the door... * Rahne , in her own rather trusting and innocent way, left the door unlocked.. * <> Ťooc: resisting urge to oojiboo ť << Heh. ^^;; >> * Rachel takes a deep breath, steadying herself, and opens the door to slide in, closing it behind her smoothly. * Rahne 's ears snap up, as she hastily pulls the top of her dress back up.. * Can't you people knock first..? Gaaaaack! * Rahne turns around.. * ..You? !! * Rachel slams back against the door and turns! * Rachel covers her eyes. ^^; * Rahne 's ears snap back, and her voice carries a hostile tone.. * What do you want? Can't you just leave me alone?! * Rachel drops her hands and straightens up, turning to eye Rahne. "Nice to see you too. And I realize I've ripped your heart out and stomped on it, but I'd think that was more of a reason to apologize than anything." Ťooc: brb ť Reason? You.. ..this is beyond apologizing for.. You've lied, and plotted, and schemed.. and not only to me! And to top it all off, you've eyed up everything else we've met that stands on two legs! You beat me down or shove me aside like a rag doll wheneve it's convenient for you, and you've come here to APOLOGIZE? * Rahne scowls.. * * Rachel narrows her eyes and steps forward. "Excuse me?! Schemed?! Plotted?! EYED UP? Jesus, you have some severe complexes...more than my own! Yes, Rahne, I conspired against you, ooh, ooh, I'm going to fall MADLY in love with Cody JUST to hurt you." That's it! I'm the bad guy here! Madly in love? But never beyond temptation, huh? And what the hell is that supposed to mean? *** Disconnected 14-15> 3m9sg32(%3n9ickser3v(149i3dentify Chees9e)%) *** Attempting to rejoin... *** Rejoined channel #Pureland *** Topic is '-=- Interlude 32.3: Give Love it's Rightful Time | Location: Floating Fortress, Del Marr | Time: Djinn's Day, Morning | 4849 Luc -=-' *** Set by Bahamut on Fri Jun 08 19:14:15 *** ChanServ sets mode: +o Lucca << Welcome back. ^_^ >> * Rachel clenches her hands but doesn't move. "Damnit, Rahne...I don't want this... I don't want you to hate me and be afraid of me.... I don't want to be battling with you every chance, every rest stop on the way....and I know it's my own damn fault, but what the hell can I do! Yeah, I fucked up, I've been jealous, I've shoved you from Cody's side!" But I can't take that back! I can't! Tell him! You can tell him the truth!! He knows already! He knows how I feel! The jealousy! He has felt it! Hell, we've even discussed it! *** Rachel changes topic to '-=- Interlude 32.4: Forces of Nature Unbridled | Location: Floating Fortress, Del Marr | Time: Djinn's Day, Morning | 4849 Luc -=-' I bet. He and you discussing it, would be like the farmer asking the fox about the missing chickens. Why did I give you pause? The thought of me reciting what I know to him? If he knew.. why would this concern you.. I won't be lied to. And from now on, neither will he. * Rachel growls in frustration. "You act like I've lied to everyone." Ťooc: back! ť You did, Rachel Sundin. I know you had your reasons for that, and won't drag that into this.. but you did lie about who you were. You lied to us all. << Back is good. ^^; You've missed pure evil. ^^;; I think Rachel'll murder Rahne, and we can have a whodunit next session! ^_^ >> Fine. But I'm not lying anymore. Believe what you want, Rahne. Hate me. Hate who I am, hate my love for him, hate the whole damn mess. But we can't keep going like this. Ťooc: ^^ Cody won't forgive her for that, so...uh...she'd better not. ť <> Ťooc: ^_^ ť You wanna stop lying to us. Don't keep lying to yourself, too, Rachel. I'm not talking as some jealous love-starved twit, I'm talking as his best friend. And as long as you are who you are, you will hurt him.. and if that happens, the Goddess help you. ........ . o O (.....hurt him....) I dont want to hurt him.... I didn't want to hurt you...and look how wonderfully that turned out....you think I'm some sort of beast who can't keep her pants up, apparently... Perhaps not quite that bad.. But you haven't exactly done anything to justify believing otherwise, Rachel. * Rachel takes some steps back to lean against the door, closing her eyes with a sigh... "So what now?" * Rahne 's ears relax a bit.. * I.. I'm not entirely sure.. ...I really am sorry, you know... I guess you can't really believe me....and it doesn't make up for anything....but... ..He does love you, Rachel. Don't doubt that, you've been a really big influence on him.. * Rachel opens her eyes halfway to look at Rahne... "....I don't doubt his love..." I gotta watch out for him though.. and we all know I love him too.. but.. well.. that means it's hard for me to give advice you'll believe when I talk like this.. I've been thick headed.... scared.....scared of you...that's why I've acted how I have.....pushing you from him...because I fear you... * Rachel closes her eyes again and rests her head on the door.. ..I didn't mean to be so rude about your.. flamboyancy.. earlier, but maybe you have to really stop and think about if you really truely love him.. Maybe you do. I think there's a really good chance. About him, I mean, what's not to like.. * Rahne sweatdrops. * But this is a serious thing.. <> . o O (....stop and think about if I truly love him....) * Rachel utters a soft laugh... It must be great to have someone so close always.. I can imagine the allure.. maybe that's why I tried so hard. It might be different for you, because of.. of.. y-your hus-- Kurik.. and how different.. how horrible.. that relationship was.. * Rachel opens her eyes and touches her fingers to the neck wide scar on her throat... "...." To find someone else, always with a warm smile, so caring.. I think maybe it becomes even more precious, because it's something you've never known.. Rahne... * Rahne wrings her mangled tail.. * A-and he's a-alot like m-me.. I-I-I can understand h-how he could fall for an i-i-inviting stranger.. Ťooc: *holds back Rache/Rahne romance comments* ť Ťooc: Sigh ^^; ť *** Gayo (foon@pix142166193005.nbtel.net) has joined #Pureland *** ChanServ sets mode: +o Gayo Ťooc: Augh, Rachel/Rahne. ť * Rachel steps forward a bit but stops, her concern flickering across her face like she's an open book... "....it's not like that... Rahne...." <> Ťooc: lol, Gayo. ť Ťooc: BTW, Ash, will you be able to do WA this Sunday>? ť Ťooc: But aren't they such a cute couple? ;) ť Ťooc: And yeah, I should. Why? ť Ťooc: Just since I want you and Grue, and you said you might be under the weather. ť << Gah! O_o Wouldn't that be the most evil thing ever! Holy last-episode shocker! O_o FOrget you, Cody! It's Rahne and I, now! You're gonna die anyways! Pfft! * Rahne snuggles into Rachels side.. * >> Ťooc: No, I said I was an overreacting fuck. ^^ ť Ťooc: I'll be fine for WA, Gayo ť Ťooc: Ellena will just be the wallflower that she is :) ť I-I can't say.. I-I was just looking into the matter a little more.. I w-wasn't suggesting anything.. Just trying to d-do what's best.. * Rahne takes a hesitant and slow step back, as Rachel draws forward.. * Ťooc: Aw, Rahne is back to normal. ť * Rachel steps back and sighs softly.. "I'm sorry...really, really sorry....please don't be afraid of me.....I know I hurt you....a lot.....all the time....but I swear I don't mean it....I just...." <> << Rahne's not really that way though. ^^;; >> <> << Rachel: We're gonna be romantic, dammit! Rahne: ;_; >> Ťooc: Ashton: *giggles merrily and proceeds to work on the yuri fanfiction* ť Ťooc: Yuri? ť Ťooc: Like Yaoi but with women ť Ťooc: Interesting. Hadn't heard of that. ť * Rahne looks down.. * Just listen to me.. listen to my advice.. I'm not trying to hurt you, or get in the way if you really do love him.. or steal him away.. I understand......please tell me these things.....more often, I mean.... tell me what you think.... <> Ťooc: Divine Grace! *wham* ť ..How could you have believed me.. ..without beating me up for having spoke my mind? * Rachel mumbles... "I didn't beat you up now....and I believe you now.....I don't think I would've beaten you up in the past...and I won't in the future...." *** Gayo (foon@pix142166193005.nbtel.net) has left #Pureland << Gayo was hoping for hot lesbian action, wasn't he? ^^; >> Ťooc: Probably. ;) I was too. ť <> *** Vanclaive (bahamut@brndas08-p07.mts.net) has joined #Pureland <> *** Rachel sets mode: +o Vanclaive << Evil. ^^; >> *** Vanclaive is now known as Bahamut *** Rahne (bahamut@brndas06-p74.mts.net) Quit (Ping timeout) Ťooc: O_o ť Ťooc: How did you know I was humping Rahne's leg O_O ť *** Bahamut is now known as Rahne << What was the last thing said? ^^ >> * Rachel mumbles... "I didn't beat you up now....and I believe you now.....I don't think I would've beaten you up in the past...and I won't in the future...." * Rahne just stands there, wringing her tail, keeping her eyes to the ground, unsure of what exactly to say.. * Ťooc: ...Rahne needs to take a shower O_o her tail probably looks like a drowned rat by now from all the blood and wringing :O ť << That's why she went into Cody's cabin, to get a change of clothes. ^^;; And why she was getting undressed when Rachel wandered in. ^^; She's dying for a bath! >> * Rachel sighs a bit and turns to open the door slightly... "I should go, leave you to....uh.....changing.........uhm.." Ťooc: Oh. I thought the getting undressed was something not so innocent. Stupid Ash baka hentai ^^; ť ....you can get your spear back whenever you want, okay...? Don't mind Niki, she just wants to help... * Rahne looks up.. * I know.. but I just can't be happy on command.. Yeah... I know....it'll take time....just something we all need to absorb.... <> Ťooc: My stomach is gurgly too :o ť << I am sating mine with Coke, Coke, Coke and more Coke. >> ..If you need advice, Miss Rachel.. I'll do my best to offer it.. I'm sorry if it's never really what you want to hear.. 14-15> 3n9otice32(%3R9adie3n(149Q3uote #208 I was chattering to Gayo about either blowing it or spraying it in there ;9))%) 14-15> 3n9otice32(%3R9adie3n(149Q3uote #108 Vampire Princess Miyu's opening reminds me of GI Joe sorta ^^;; O_o O_o O_9O)%) Hey...we all need a slap in the gut sometime....and if you ever feel comfortable enough again, please, call me just Rachel....I don't deserve a title, nor do I want one.... * Lucca is gone (%:O(%log(none))%) (pec) * Lucca is back (%^_^%) (%away(9secs)) (pec) I-I'll try.. * Rahne looks hopeful for a moment.. * ..Do you know if it's possible to get a warm bath here? ..with bubbles? Huh? Oh, sure...Cody's room comes with a built in one, but you probably don't want to use that....there is another bathroom with a tub further along..... I used it earlier...hot water with bubbles included.... * Rahne nods a bit, and ventures a small smile.. * Thank you.. Ťooc: ... I feel useless. ^_^ ť Ťooc: ...Ah well. Just solid proof that angst cannot compare when trying to make someone understand something ^^ ť * Rachel gazes at Rahne warmly for a moment before nodding... "No problem.... be safe, the storm might have passed but it's only temporary...may as well make good use of it....I'll see you later, Rahne...." * Rahne curtsies slightly. * Take care, R-Rachel.. don't forget what I told you.. I won't... I promise... * Rachel turns and heads out, heading down the hall quickly.. <> * Rahne bundles up her belongings, and goes in search of a room with a bath.. * * Rachel makes her way back to Cody's room, sliding inside and closing the door... <> Ťooc: Here ^^; ť <> * Lucca still seems to be asleep, in the exact same position he was in before she left. He looks a bit paler, and generally exhausted. Ťooc: er. ť *** Lucca is now known as Cody <> * Cody still seems to be asleep, in the exact same position he was in before she left. He looks a bit paler, and generally exhausted. 14-15> 3m9sg32(%3n9ickser3v(149i3dentify Chees9e)%) Ťooc: ^^; ť .... * Rachel quietly treads to Cody's side, gently adjusting him into what she believes is more comfortable....she tugs his blankets up around him... * Cody remains asleep. * Rachel reaches out, as if wanting to touch Cody's cheek and stops, her hand shaking violently.....she begins to tremble... * Rachel tugs her hand away, her breath coming slightly faster as tears begin to roll down her cheeks... she turns away... * Cody 's eyes twitch but he remains asleep still. ... ... ....... (w) as long as I am who I am.... I'll hurt him... * Rachel closes her eyes and wipes her tears roughly from her face... * Rachel heads for the door and turns to gaze at Cody longingly, unable to stop the new tears that are followed by an even greater amount....she then quietly opens the door to slip free of the room, closing the door firmly behind her... <> Ťooc: Finish it up, Rahne? :) ť << Yes. Trying to compose apt closing statement. ^^;; >> <<> << Argh.. apt closing line eluding me.. ^^;; >> << LOL.... say that Rache falls off the ship while in tears and dies horribly, making Rahne a happy happy panda!>> Ťooc: O_O ť Ťooc: Um, that would mean the world is destroyed, making Rahne a dead dead panda :o ť <> Ťooc: Does that mean that Cody's gonna go insane and evil when you boff him? ť <> << Need a word for examining self in a mental respect. ^^; Keeps escaping me. Help? ^^;; >> Ťooc: reflection? ť Ťooc: Introspection? ť << And no.. if after their talk, Rachel killed herself, Rahne'd be devastated, and never offer advice or go outside or talk to anyone again. ^^;; >> <> Ťooc: retrospection? ť >> The grand floating fortress of Del Marr rocks gently in the calm waters of the vast ocean.. The respite from the previous battle, and release of the tension aboard comes as solace to some.. but for others it is not quite so tranquil, the time offered used for more intense introspection.. << Good? I'm not really happy with it.. but will it suffice? >> Ťooc: Yes :D ť <> == Session End! == Session Close: Fri Jun 08 23:48:45 2001