Start of #Pureland buffer: Tue Jun 05 23:28:34 2001 *** Now talking in #Pureland *** Topic is '-=- Interlude 32.1: Cleansing the Heart | Location: Floating Fortress, Del Marr | Time: Djinn's Day, Morning | 4849 Luc -=-' *** Set by GMStoren on Tue Jun 05 00:23:15 *** ChanServ sets mode: +o Storen ^^ Wow. Did I just make it in time? No. ;) hehehe You already had it? ^^ No, but I had to say no to a question like that ;) No, I just got here ^^ Hehehe ^^ *** Retrieving #Pureland info... Oh! Hiyas, Luks! ^^; brb a sec.. skunk, I think. -_-; Fight them on the beaches, Baha :o :o Don't mind me if I'm a little not into it tonight.. I'm still worrying my computer will fail again. :o Oh no :( * Lucca hugs your compie Yeah, I thought my CDROM died, but apparently the main DC power cord is extremely frayed inside, so I had to take electrical tape to reinsulate it. ^^ Aww. Idrive is dead :( As of June 18th :p Another web enterprise biets the dust.. *** Storen is now known as GMStoren Well, they were bought out :p Well.. that was that. * Bahamut returns.. * Baha :D Lukie-luks. ^_^ *** GMStoren changes topic to '-=- Interlude 32.2: your title here ^^ | Location: Floating Fortress, Del Marr | Time: Djinn's Day, Morning | 4849 Luc -=-' Let me know when you're ready and stuffers. :) Sorry, was AFK *** Ashton is now known as Chrys Ready now though ^^ Well.. I'm not sure if I should dispose of the Skunk now, or leave it until later. ^^; RP first, I guess. ^^; O_o *** Bahamut is now known as Rahne Dispose of skunk first. Eww I can wait ^_^ Nah... there's nothing more patient in this world than dead things. ^^; It's also raining.. I want to hold out and see if the rain relents. Digging a hole in a muddy field could be really sucking. :P How did you kill the skunk? ^^; * Rahne shot it. * ^^; Bahamut's so lucky.. he gets to shoot tresspassers I need to do that more often. ;:D *** Scott (bmscott@PPPa2-ResaleMemphis2-1R7052.dialinx.net) has joined #Pureland Wow ^^; ..ack, brb You are nice and cute, and innocent, so I won't supply you with the details. But it was ended so fast that it didn't even have time to spray, which is nice. :) LOL. ^^ Well, it's nice to know if we ever roomed together, that you can take care of everyone just fine :) * Rahne is am be a good protector. * ^_^ ^^ * GMStoren will beat up the people who steal Lucca's fridge goodies. ^_- ^_^ LOL ^^ * Rahne thinks he would get in trouble if he shot such food-raiding people. * ;_; They'd probably blame video games though, and not me. ^^; Baha takes the wild animals, I take the domestic animals. We're each in our element.. or something ...lol. ;) ^_^ Anyway shall we proceed? :) At your convenience. :) What Baha said. :) *** GMStoren changes topic to '-=- Interlude 32.2: After the Storm | Location: Floating Fortress, Del Marr | Time: Djinn's Day, Morning | 4849 Luc -=-' ~~ INTERLUDE START ~~ The last vestiges of the storm hitting Del Marr begin to clear, as the denizens of the floating city begin to pick up the pieces, some mourning, and other celebrating. Rahne does not seem to have a place with either, however, as ran off to find the shelter of some desolate corner, away from everything... * Rahne hugs herself, sniffling quietly and wedging herself even further back into a small dark corner away from the others, her misery her own.. * «ooc: Just keep going for a few lines.. ^^ I wanna give Rahne suitable time to be depressed before I come in » Somewhere up above Rahne, a figure or two darts among the threadbare riggings of the frigate, trying to repair them before the winds pick up again. * Rahne hugs her knees to her chest, curling her wet, ratty-looking tail over top of her feet.. it's damp unnatural touch a far cry from the warmth and comfort it used to offer.. * A few wave cavalry riders patrol the oceans immediately to the right of the boat with her little cranny, as a crew of workers hauls the remains of one of hydroponic farm vessels in peice by piece. None of them seem to notice Rahne, though... * Chrys watches the workers from the crow's nest for a while before looking around. He spots Rahne and sighs, standing up, shaking the water out of his hair, and leaping down to the deck... * Chrys walks into a storage hold and comes out a minute later...he walks up to Rahne with a blanket, saying nothing and looking somewhat sheepish.. *** Scott (bmscott@PPPa2-ResaleMemphis2-1R7052.dialinx.net) Quit (Quit: Leaving) * Rahne backs away from him.. her ears folding back.. * * Chrys sighs and hands Rahne the blanket, turning around. "Look...I'm sorry... I'm sorry for making things worse for you...if you want me to leave you alone and never see you again, fine..." * Rahne hugs the blanket, rubbing her cheek against it, stray tears escaping from eyes closed tight.. * * Chrys looks over his shoulder at Rahne, forlorn, and sighs, starting to walk off. "Bye, Rahne... if you wanna talk, I'll be around...and if not, don't worry...I won't bother you any more...you don't need it..." * Rahne slumps back down to the ground, leaning against the wall, her crying renewed.. * * Chrys brushes a few limp strands of hair out of his eyes and stops, looking back at Rahne once more, not sure if he should stay or go... * Rahne doesn't appear to be looking anywhere, her eyes closed tight and her arms wrapped around the folded blanket Chrys offered.. * * Chrys bites his lip, feeling deep down that he'll probably regret this later, and walks over to Rahne, kneeling down. "You gonna be okay, Rahne...?" * Rahne shakes her head slowly, a few droplets of blood-tainted water scattering from her hair.. ..she speaks quietly.. * ..I.. I used to think so.. but now.. now I don't know.. ..I don't want to be here.. ...what happened...? What did I miss...? You used to be different..more...hopeful, I guess... you had that enthusiasm...that hope that life would get better...that I could never have...what happened to you in that river...? * Lucca is gone (%Eating!(%log(none))%) (pec) I was tossed aside again.. ..like I never mattered, or wasn't there.. I.. I thought if I wasn't needed.. * Rahne chokes back a few sobs, and hugs the blanket more.. * ..but he made me come back.. ..come back to nothing the hurt.. « :/ » << ;_; >> ...He...made you? * Rahne nods, planting her reddened face down into the blanket, her tiny shoulders shuddering with continued tears.. * *** Scott (bmscott@PPPa70-ResaleMemphis2-1R7052.dialinx.net) has joined #Pureland * Chrys closes his eyes and sighs, putting an unsure hand on Rahne's shoulder, trying to comfort her, but afraid she'll pull away again... * Rahne seems greatly weighed down by the hand.. her weight shifts under it, but you are unsure if she's trying to escape out from underneath it or not.. Rahne's matted tail wrestles it's way around her water and blood saturated dress to curl between her legs like a timid and frightened creature.. * * Chrys mutters and sits down next to Rahne, pulling away his hand... "I...I'm sorry...I'm sorry I can't be who or what you want me to be, and I'm sorry that I can't comfort you even when I try...All I want to do is to let you stop crying...give you a reason to be happy again..." ..I.. I don't have any reason to be happy.. I kept dreaming and dreaming... ...and hoping and hoping... ...and wishing and wishing... ...and for what? Only to be crushed, over and over again.. I'm so tired of it all.. * Rahne breaks down again, her tears flowing freely.. * ...Rahne... That's what I mean...I want some of those dreams and wishes to come true...I don't want you to be like this...it's not fair...and it should be... * Rahne 's voice is strained by the tears.. * ..but it's never going to be that way! How do I compete when the powers that be.. do.. do.. ..do what they do to me, over and over! ..I never had a chance right from the start because the.. the Goddess or whoever else never gave me a chance..! But I hoped and hoped anyways.. I kept my chin up.. in.. inspite of everything! ...maybe you're getting chances but you can't see them... « you tell the man Rahne! » ..I can't keep it up forever, Chrys.. ..I'm not strong.. ...You're stronger than I am... * Rahne shakes her head.. * No.. no.. I'm not.. You're not the one sitting her in blood-soaked clothing wanting to tear all her hair out.. << here in blood soaked clothing, rather. ^^; >> ...You are... I can hear it in your voice... those dreams are still there... You ignore their existence now...but they're still there... you didn't kill your hopes like I did... * Rahne wipes away more new tears.. * And all that means is this is just going to happen again.. and again.. and again.. ...Tell me, Rahne... is it really worth it? To get rid of everything you ever knew... just to stop hurting... C-C-Cody believes what he does.. and Rachel.. Rachel wields fate like a s-sledgehammer.. and the Goddess.. the Goddess just lets it happen.. ..I-I wish I could say yes.. ..I-I don't know... * Lucca is back (%gone: 26mins 18secs ) (pec) Listen, Rahne. Maybe there IS no Goddess... maybe the Goddess is just a symbol, something to keep people kneeled down and praying... maybe there is a Goddess, but she doesn't really help us like we want her to... either way... you have two choices...run or fight... trust me, Rahne... you don't want to take the first choice..you don't want to run... you don't wanna turn into someone like me... and nobody wants you to die... * Rahne cries.. * ..but why? All I do is hurt, and hurt more? Can't anyone see that?? Why couldn't I have gone..? I don't matter.. no one would've noticed in the long run.. ... * Rahne hugs the blanket tight again.. * It doesn't matter now.. here I am.. ..death's door is so distant again.. ...It does matter, Rahne... No.. it doesn't.. I'm back, and that seemed to give him peace of mind.. but what next? Now I get to be shoved out of the way again.. over and over.. forgotten.. ..And you know what? I still don't hate him.. I don't think I can, or ever shall.. * Chrys sighs, hugging his legs and staring at the deck. "I won't forget you... but I don't matter... he doesn't forget you, either...Rache just gets a little pushy at times..." And I can't push back! Cody.. C-Cody thinks he loves her, and I can't hurt her.. If I dare to push back, even just a little, the Goddess looses that sledghammer and I'm forgotten in the mud.. again.. ... * Rahne hands ball up into little fists, becoming upset again.. * You know what? I don't have the answers. I never did... No one has answers.. I'm a Sage.. -I'm- supposed to have answers.. I have none.. ..I'm not worthy of this.. ..... Yes, you are... * Chrys stands up. "You're worthier than any of the rest of us... I'm sorry I didn't manage to do anything but make you feel worse...You really don't need that..." * Rahne sighs, the anger venting.. * No.. no.. you've helped a bit.. ...No...no, I've never helped...even when you said I did, back in Mandala... heh, all that happened was you two just got in a fight and grew further apart... I'm nothing but a broken wheel... I just keep things from moving like they should... * Rahne nuzzles the blanket sadly.. * ..It.. ..It wasn't because of the fight.. Cody's done nothing to drive us apart.. it's been me.. me or Rachel.. but mostly me.. ..And don't speak ill of yourself.. Goddess, that's the last thing we need.. another miserable person in the group.. Broken wheels don't keep things rolling.. and you're.. you're keeping things rolling.. ...Psh, I was miserable before I ever met the group... I just don't want you to sink as low as I am... I'm not keeping anything rolling, they're just rolling without my help... so I'm useless AND superficial. It's bad enough I was born as I was.. ..but was there more? Am I supposed to suffer like this..? I'm beginning to think it.. *** Scott (bmscott@PPPa70-ResaleMemphis2-1R7052.dialinx.net) Quit (Quit: Leaving) * Rahne sighs.. * Please don't speak badly about yourself.. please don't upset me anymore than I am.. Trust me.. I'm still a Sage after all.. I'm supposed to know things like this.. ......Rahne... I won't stop speaking badly about myself unless you stop being stubborn and realize that people are willing to help you get out of this...willing to help stop your suffering... * Rahne closes her eyes.. * ..Don't.. ..don't "Rahne" me.. ..don't try to make deals like that.. it's childish.. ..don't lower yourself to my level.. ...Rahne, god damn it! Don't you realize what I'm saying? I've already HIT rock bottom here...at least you have people who notice you and care about you... whether or NOT you notice them! * Rahne shrinks away, her ears snapping down as tight as they can go, her tail curling up between her legs again. * Listen. Just because things haven't worked out yet for you doesn't mean they never will. ...besides... if things were always how we wanted them, we'd never learn how to survive... ..Nothing.. nothing at all has given so much as even a hint of improving.. nothing.. * Rahne sheds more tears.. * Living the life I have.. I don't think anyone would -want- to survive.. they would be just as I.. Nothing has given a hint of improving? ...Then stop looking at Cody. Things have tried to improve for you otherwise. ... * Chrys sighs and looks out to the sea. "...I'm sorry. You don't need me and my stupid temper tantrums... Go ahead and think how you want...I can't change it..." Don't lie.. nothing's improved.. this whole journey has been nothing but an excercise in pain and loss, wherever I turn.. Look at the world now. Look at this forsaken city of ships.. ... Fine. I'm wrong. You're right. That's how it always is... Maybe I should just stop trying to pull myself out... The ships do defintiely look worse for wear, but the fact some of them are even still floating after the assault also seems to carry a bit of pride along with it as they cut through the calm waves. * Chrys sighs. "See you at the bottom, Rahne... you obviously don't want me to try to help... so I'm just gonna do what I should've done years ago. Just remember..these ships are holding together...I could hold together if I wanted to any more... so can you." I never said I was right.. I'm as foolish, stupid, and as whiny as I was when I was in diapers.. Pull yourself out, Chrys.. just don't try to do it carrying the rest of the world on your shoulders.. ...I don't want to carry the rest of the world on my shoulders. ..that's how everyone else seems to survive.. Just you. But you don't want me to... so I'll just go see how well I sink, instead of trying. -_- Goodbye, Rahne. * Chrys slowly walks to the railing of the ship, cursing to himself under his breath.. * Rahne gets angry, standing up. * Stop with your damned games and melodrama! I don't need this! No one does! Least of all, you! * Chrys chuckles coldly, lifting a foot up to the railing. "Heh, melodrama... fitting... but maybe one of these days you'll realize that nothing's a game any more...this's all real..." Chrys notes it's a long way down... if it were yesterday, the raging ocea would have certainly swallowed him all too willingly. If you wanna go throw yourself overboard, fine! But you don't! You're a lying bastard! A thief trying to blackmail me like this! « ooooooh. ^^ » *** Jupiter (Eternal@n104h177.thezone.net) has joined #Pureland *** ChanServ sets mode: +o Jupiter You want a better deal? You throw yourself over, and I'll go get my spear and throw myself on it! I've got nothing to lose! You wanna reason to live? ... Fine. If that's what you want to think, go ahead. How do you like it with the tables turned? ...No. I don't want a reason to live. I want you to have a reason. * Chrys chuckles. "You wanna do that to yourself? You know how HE'D feel if you killed yourself for no reason at all?" You haven't turned the tables one bit, since there never WERE any tables. Again, I bid you farewell. -_- * Chrys leaps over the railing, holding on with one hand through instinct more than will... * Rahne 's matted tail twiches.. * Don't you dare pull this blackmail crap with me, Chrys Sorryu! ...Fine! * Chrys takes a deep breath and uses every last bit of his willpower to let go, falling to the sea and hitting the water hard... Chrys takes the plunge... for real this time. o_O * Rahne curses, and were anyone around that knew her, would be quite astounded by the normally quiet girl's extensive and colorful vocabulary.. * * Rahne , looking as wretched as ever, comandeers some of the Del Marr citizens to try to rescue the foolish thief.. * ..Please don't let him drown himself.. -_-; The water splashes up at Rahne a bit, as she yells out her distress. three of the wave riders slink over to the ship, and dive down. "Aye!" A long moment passes and a grizzled cavalier pull Chrys out of the water, hanging by his shirt on a trident. :o * Rahne sighs, looking down and shaking her head; feeling as miserable as ever.. * * Chrys just hangs there limply... he's alive and conscious, but not moving... his eyes gaze up at Rahne, covered in an emotion she can't quite place... [Rider You trying to go to Davey Jones's locker before your time, boy?] [Rider] You trying to go to Davey Jones's locker before your time, boy? « must.. amster.. that.. grr ^^ » * Chrys growls lowly, not answering the wave rider directly. * Rahne doesn't look very impressed.. * The serpent leans upwards and he deposits Chyrs back on deck. "The sea's claimed enough lives for one day, matey. Don't throw away Undine's mercy.." ... The bunch of riders swims off to check the other vessels in their patrol. * Chrys is placed down, dripping wet. He still doesn't move, sitting near where he was before. "I hope you're happy. I could have actually gotten what I wanted, if you hadn't done that." You want to do it again? Fine. But don't you dare blackmail me, Chrys Sorryu. ...That wasn't blackmail. And I would do it again, if I'd think that I could pull myself over that damn railing again.. If you'd wanted that so bad in the first place, we'd never have met, Chrys. My own misery is no excuse of yours. ..... Rahne, if you refuse to listen to words, what am I supposed to do? ..You're not supposed to throw yourself in the ocean, that's for damned sure.. * Rahne sighs.. * ..Give me time.. ..that's about the only way.. ...Sure, time. -_- Like time's worked for you before... I've always been the hopeful one, but now, I'm not.. not very, at least.. Perhaps it's your time to be hopeful while I am not. Maybe this time. ... My time to be hopeful. My time. Heheh. * Chrys laughs lowly. "That's a classic, Rahne." The last time I was hopeful is when I was ten. I've stolen from people and killed those who get in my way. I'm wanted in several towns. And you expect me to have something to be hopeful for. «ooc: Yes! The hope you'll be put out of your misery! ...Chrys: ...You're no fun. :| » <> «ooc: ^_^ » « ^_^; » «ooc: *toddles off to find food* » My friend and teacher has died.. the man I dream of shall never love me as I dream.. I am now apparently a major spiritual leader, and I'm having a serious crisis of faith.. The world, my world, is crumbling. And I can't protect it, with every step, I fail. And you expect me to have something to be hopeful for. Then why not consider my first offer... ..because I'm not prepared.. and neither, I think, are you.. Time, Chrys.. all in due time.. ...I'm prepared to die. It's living that I'm not ready for. Stop lying. There are more effective ways to kill yourself than throwing yourself overboard. Or, perhaps you'd have stayed with me in the river. Maybe you are scared of living, but you're still scared of death. .... In the meantime.. get yourself off that hook, and into some dry clothes before you catch pnemonia.. ...okay, that I can truthfully refuse. I don't want to. It's not worth the effort. *** Lucca (dinner@pool0684.cvx21-bradley.dialup.earthlink.net) Quit (Read error: Connection reset by peer) * Rahne sighs, folding her arms across her stomach. * So.. you want me to inform the others that you're hanging out here intentionally trying to become bedridden? ..I'm sure the Lady Rhiana would have some choice words about your decision.. Go ahead. I don't care. Being bedridden's gotten HIM a lot more attention. « :o » *** Lucca (dinner@pool0612.cvx20-bradley.dialup.earthlink.net) has joined #Pureland *** Lucca (dinner@pool0612.cvx20-bradley.dialup.earthlink.net) Quit (Read error: Connection reset by peer) *** Cody (dinner@pool1129.cvx20-bradley.dialup.earthlink.net) has joined #Pureland << Eek. ;_; >> « eep » *** Rahne sets mode: +o Cody *** Cody is now known as Lucca «ooc: ^^; » << Welcome back. ^^; >> *** Lucca (dinner@pool1129.cvx20-bradley.dialup.earthlink.net) Quit (Read error: Connection reset by peer) *** Lucca (dinner@pool0560.cvx21-bradley.dialup.earthlink.net) has joined #Pureland *** ChanServ sets mode: +o Lucca «ooc: ... » «ooc: ... :( » * Rahne sighs again, and makes good to go below.. * Fine.. but mark my words.. ..it's not very pleasant up here when you're cold and wet.. * Rahne turns back, one last time, unfurling the blanket Chrys originally brought here, expertly flicking it up and over the suspended Chrys, draping it gently over his shoulders.. * ..Thank you for the blanket.. * Chrys takes the blanet, slowly undoing himself from the hook. "You're welcome.." «ooc: blanket » * Rahne silently heads below deck.. * * Chrys sighs, going back to the storage room to find his pack and change. "Maybe this is better...maybe HE can knock some sense into you... lord knows I don't have any to knock...maybe you did fall for the better man, after all..." << Couple line's back, it's supposed to be: originally brought her, not here, ^^; >> «ooc: End there if you wish » << T'would be prudent, I think. >> « your call.. » «ooc: Um, I gave you my opinion on it :o » *** Lucca (dinner@pool0560.cvx21-bradley.dialup.earthlink.net) Quit (Read error: Connection reset by peer) << I think we're done. ^^; "Mommy! It's over! It's over! ;_;" >> Chrys' words echo into the reaches of the vast ocean, with the tone of truth. Just how much can time truly heal and how fast? One way the answer will be known. ~~ INTERLUDE END ~~ *** Chrys is now known as Ashton Viola. ^^; ^^ Okay. er well or another ^^ Now I feel bad because Rahne's such a stubborn bitch. ^^;; This ran differently than I had expected. ^^ *** Rahne is now known as Bahamut *** Lucca (dinner@pool0007.cvx21-bradley.dialup.earthlink.net) has joined #Pureland *** ChanServ sets mode: +o Lucca End of #Pureland buffer Tue Jun 05 23:28:34 2001