Session Start: Mon Jan 22 03:07:58 2001
*** Now talking in #somrpg
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<Lucca> Yeah! Is sexy!
*** Lucca sets mode: +o Bahamut
*** Lucca sets mode: +o Keylia
*** Lucca is now known as Cody
<Bahamut> Sexy is good. ^_^
*** Bahamut is now known as Rahne
<Keylia> Bad attitude considering.. ^^;
<Rahne> Heh. ^^;
*** Cody changes topic to '=- Chapter 17.2 Insert Witty Lude Name Here | Loc: Holy City Wendel | Time: Mana Holy Day, Afternoon | 1684 Luc -=-'
<Keylia> what do you need? my cookie cutter intro? ;)
<Cody> Just that, if you please. :)
*** Rahne changes topic to '=- Chapter 17.2 Delicate Affection | Loc: Holy City Wendel | Time: Mana Holy Day, Afternoon | 1684 Luc -=-'
<Cody> «ooc: Ooh. Good. »
<Keylia> >> It's been a short while since Cody was roused thansk to the effrots of our heroic Rachel, and everyone went to attend to thing be it hunger or whatnot. ;)
<Keylia> >> However, rahne could not get that one nagging thought out of her mind, even surrounded by the joy of victory... she found herself back in Cody's room after most had left him to rest.
<Keylia> « good? ^^ »
<Rahne> << Grand. ^^ >>
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* Cody is still asleep, his color still a touch pale, but much better than what it was.
* Rahne quietly changes the water in the basin beside the bed.. *
<Cody> «ooc: Rahne: It's full of pee! :p »
* Cody shifts a bit, rolling over to his side, "Mm..?"
* Rahne 's ears snap up, and she turns around to face him.. her eyes are rimmed with red.. *
* Cody opens his eyes, still tired and weak looking but not as inchoerant, "Rahne...?"
* Rahne pauses a moment, before softly answering.. * ...yes, Cody?
<Cody> You're crying too...?
* Cody reaches up and wipes one of her tears away, looking confused.
* Rahne shamefully looks away.. * I'm sorry, Cody...
<Cody> Don't be...
<Cody> It's okay to cry...I learned that...
* Rahne looks back.. her eyes welling up with more.. * It's not that..
<Cody> ...Rahne...? What's wrong?
* Cody tries to sit up, but can't quite muster the energy for it, so he lies back down.
* Rahne sits on the edge of the bed, curling her tail around her side.. *
<Cody> I...I don't...I'm worried...what's wrong...?
<Rahne> History..  fate..  I'm not really sure..  but it cost me something very dear..
<Cody> Did something happen while I was...Sleeping?
* Rahne sniffles. * I'm horrible, and selfish, and stupid, and blind. I was so foolish, and because of it, I might have hurt you..
<Keylia> « while youw ere sleeping... »
<Cody> Hurt me...? I...I don't think you did...?
<Cody> And you're none of those things...don't think that...
<Rahne> ..You know..  how I feel?
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* Cody 's face blanks, and then he suddenly looks sad, "Oh..."
<Cody> Rahne...
<Cody> . o O ( You come out of a coma and already the angst flies at you... )
<Cody> . o O ( But...Oh goddess... )
<Cody> It's...
* Cody fumbles for words.
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<Rahne> It's okay..  I think I've resigned myself to...  well...
<Cody> Rahne...
<Ashton> «ooc: "the angst flies at you"? LOL! »
* Cody takes her hand, "I...It's me who hurt you, I think."
<Radien> << What's this, now?.. Side lude? >>
<Ashton> «ooc: No, another lude, with different characters. Keylia's just spectator. »
<Rahne> No..  it was my stupidity all along..  I didn't see.
* Rahne 's voice is shaky.. *
<Cody> I don't know about destiny. Or fate. I don't know how I feel about Rachel or everyone...But...I DO care about you. A lot. You're one of the closest friends I have and I'd do anything to make sure you're okay...
<Cody> But...not in the way you want to be loved...
<Radien> << Okay. ^^ >>
<Cody> I care about you as a dear friend...I don't know if that's enough...I want it to be...but that's your choice...
<Cody> If you want to walk away...I'll be hurt...but I'd understand. If you want to remain friends I'll always be here...
* Rahne chokes back a sob.. * I prayed.. I said I'd give anything to see you safely back.. and here you are. I want to be happy, Cody.. but I just can't be...
* Cody looks down, "You looked after me...?"
<Cody> Thank you...
<Rahne> Never well enough..
<Cody> No..no that's not true.
<Rahne> No.. don't thank me.. I'm a terrible protector and a horrible friend..
<Cody> You've been there more than you know...
<Cody> I know I haven't been that open. It's hard for me...
<Cody> I'm so used to having my thoughts laughed at and ridiculed...
<Cody> But the times you've hugged me, or held my hand...even LISTENED to me...it's been a great help, Rahne.
<Cody> I appreciate it all...
<Rahne> I've been so alone all my life..  I've had no friends, save for Master Joch..  when I met you..
<Cody> You're not alone now, you know...
<Rachel> <<Cody: It's just....GOD DAMN! WHY YOU SO CLINGY, BIZZNITCH?! :o>>
<Cody> «ooc: ^^; »
<Rahne> ..when I met you, I'd experienced something so different..  I just didn't see how you felt.
<Cody> I wasn't really sure how I felt, to be honest.
<Rahne> I'm alone, Cody..  I'm a hideous abberration..
<Cody> You're only alone if you choose to be, Rahne. I'm still right here. I still want to be your friend.
<Rahne> I don't know what to do..  I still feel the same way towards you..  and.. and if you don't want that.. it can't be good..
* Rahne cries.. *
* Cody tries to push himself off the bed, and hugs Rahne, "I'm sorry for misleading you. I'm the blind one. Not you..."
<Cody> I feel terrible...
* Rahne hugs him.. * No.. I should have known better..
<Radien> << <Rahne> You'll always be Rachel's bitch... >>
<Rahne> No matter how hard I try, how much I protest..  how I see you as Cody..  the world tells me you are the Gemma.  I dispute it, but history, or fate, or the Goddess..  the way things have been won't change...
* Cody stiffens a bit at the mention of being the 'Gemma'.
<Rahne> I hate it too...  I hate it too...
<Cody> Rahne...things...happen for a reason. I see that now...I don't know what I'm going to do...but...You think that everything that goes wrong is your fault. So many times I've seen it...and I wanted to tell you, "No! It's not your fault...it just happened..." But I couldn't ge the words out...I'm too shy...
<Cody> So I just bit my tounge trying to figure out how to help you, and it only got worse...
<Cody> You did protect me though...
<Cody> Something I owe you my life for...
<Rahne> No..  I should have seen it..  History had it laid out before me all this time..
<Rahne> It was vain and selfish of me to try and challenge the world..
<Rahne> I'm paying for that selfishness now...
<Cody> How could you have known who I was? I didn't know, even!
<Cody> History isn't laid out in stone. Even now...I don't know how things'll end up.
<Cody> If you don't try to change the world for the better, who will Rahne?
<Cody> . o O ( ...Listen to yourself, you ditz. )
<Rahne> But you know how one thing'll end..
<Cody> ...You mean...?
<Rahne> I'm not interested in the world... the world has hurt me and made fun of me and smacked me down since the day I was born..
<Cody> Hey...no. Don't talk like that....
<Cody> Don't talk like you're so bitter...I don't want to see you end up like that...
<Rahne> You've done it..
<Cody> «ooc: Dude. She and Cody switched roles. »
<Cody> ...I know I have.
<Cody> I don't want to see you become me...
<Rachel> <<Don't end up like me!>>
<Rahne> I hate you when you're like that..
<Cody> Sometimes...I can't help it. I try so hard not to be that person...but..So much...all at once....
<Cody> I don't want to be that person anymore!
* Rahne hugs him before gently laying him back down in bed.. * I don't know how to stop it though.. I wanted to give you love, I wanted you to know that that dark man could be banished.. but you wouldn't let me.. I still don't know what to do..
<Cody> I don't think you really can banish him...I...I just...I just don't want to see you sad..and I'm making you sad. I wish I knew what to do...
<Rahne> I'd do anything for you..  I've given up my happiness for you..  and I'll give up more..
<Cody> Don't...Don't give up your happiness...
<Cody> I want you to be happy...
<Cody> I wish I could say that over time you'll heal...and maybe you will. Maybe you won't...but I can't change how you feel...just as you can't change how I feel with the 'dark man' inside me. We have to accept someone as what they are...the full package...
* Rahne battles another rush of tears.. * Why are things like this? Why so cruel?
<Radien> << And Cody has a very nice package, at that. >>
<Rahne> << One Rahne'll never get. :( >>
<Cody> «ooc: God you make me feel lousy! ^^: »
<Cody> «ooc: ICly. OOCLy too, but tis not your fault. :) Tis the plot. »
<Rahne> << Nonononono..  I don't mean to.. :( >>
<Cody> «ooc: Not your fault! ^^ »
<Radien> << lol >>
<Cody> I don't know...
<Cody> Don't cry...
* Cody looks like he's about ready to as well.
<Radien> << You should just remove those ooc brackets... you're acting just like your characters! ^_- >>
<Cody> «ooc: ....True. »
<Radien> << hehe. >>
* Rahne a tear escapes, and winds slowly down her cheek.. * What did I do wrong, Cody?
<Cody> You didn't do anything wrong.
<Ashton> «ooc: You didn't screw him when you had the chance! »
<Cody> It...
* Cody sighs...
<Cody> I don't know...
<Rahne> << He's in a bed right now, and I'm just above the covers. ^^; >>
<Rachel> <<LOL>>
<Rahne> I'm sorry..  I'm so sorry, Cody...
<Cody> No...don't be. Please don't be. It's not your fault. You take so many things to heart. You're ...you're so nice and I've just stomped on your heart and I'm SO sorry....
<Cody> I'm selfish for asking you to remain friends...
<Cody> I'm the selfish one. Not you.
<Cody> ...I'm so insenstive.
<Rachel> <<Oh come on now!>>
<Rahne> No..  I should have protected my heart, the way you guard yours..
<Cody> «ooc: I know. Weird 180 :p »
<Cody> I don't know if my way is right.
<Rahne> You weren't selfish... you've had alot of things on your mind..  I've only had one thing...
<Rahne> You're smart, and strong..
*** Keylia is now known as Storen
<Rahne> You're brave, and noble, and valliant..
<Rahne> You're compassionate..
<Cody> I'm not...I'm weak and scared, Rahne...
<Rahne> You never hurt me..
<Cody> I don't want to hurt you. I don't want to hurt the people I care about. 
<Rahne> I've seen you leap in front of me to sheild me from attacks..  I've seen you bear great humility for the benefit of an entire race..  You are everything I've said, and more..
<Rahne> You're compassionate and patient, especially when it comes to Miss Rachel..
<Rachel> <<Hey, I got mentioned!>>
<Rahne> << ^_^ >>
<Ashton> «ooc: <Rahne> DAMN HER TO HELL I WANT TO KILL HER SHE DOESN'T DESERVE YOUR MANLINESS »
<Ashton> «ooc: ;) jk »
<Radien> << Which usually screws up the conversation between those two, Rache ;) >>
* Cody chuckles a little, "Rachel is...well... ^^: She can be..."
* Cody coughs.
<Rachel> <<LOL Hey now!>>\
<Cody> «ooc: He means that lovelingly :D »
<Cody> You know, Rahne...
<Cody> You did protect me, I've been trying to say it but I keep getting sidetracked.
<Radien> << Well, come on, now... it's like bringing up an ex-lover in bed. ^^; eheh. >>
<Radien> << Except not ex-, and ON bed, not IN it.... >>
<Cody> I...I'm still not sure what Khryos wanted me for...but I'm okay...you helped me, didn't you? I can tell.
<Rahne> I let you get captured in the first place..  I couldn't protect you..
<Cody> You didn't know. No one knew. I was stupid for letting Khryos trick me in the first place.
<Cody> ..and in the end, you saved my life.
* Cody smiles, "Thank you, Rahne..."
<Rahne> Somewhere, today, I lost you forever..  Not because I gave up trying..  But because the world kicked me down so badly that I couldn't get up..  I wanted to..  I still want to..  But I'll only hurt the both of us more...
<Rahne> What would you do in my shoes, Cody..?
<Cody> I...
<Cody> You're wrong. You didn't lose me.
<Ashton> «ooc: <Cody> I would have sex with me. »
<Cody> I'm right here. That's what I've been trying to tell you...
<Cody> The only way you'll lose me is if you walk away. I'm still here...
* Cody looks down, "I...I don't want 'fate' to decide if someone should or shouldn't be my friend..."
<Rahne> I didn't mean about friendship...
<Cody> I know...I know...
<Cody> ...I can't convince you. Maybe the best thing to do is just...let things settle for a while. Feelings and all of that. If you decide later you stilll want to be friends, I'll be here. I'll always be here...
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* Rahne gently tucks Cody in.. * I..
<Cody> Please...just think about it...?
<Cody> I want to be your friend. But now you have to decide if you'll let me in, Rahne.
<Rahne> I'm alone, Cody..  I dared to love, to dream of love.. but in the end, I'm still alone.
<Cody> No! You're not!
* Rahne turns down the lanterns in the room.. *
<Cody> Rahne...please...
<Storen> « eep :/ »
<Cody> (softly) Can't you see there is more than one type of love...?
* Rahne looks back, her face cascading with tears.. * I love you, Cody Hasim Hylissa. I loved you from the moment I saw you in the woods that morning... I don't think I can change that..
* Cody looks down, "You can't see..."
<Rachel> <<Rahne commits suicide right in front of Cody. Cody freaks out and dies from a hernia. Rachel dies from heartache. Keylia dies from heartburn. Chrys dies from Tori.>>
<Cody> «ooc: How pleasant! »
<Storen> « I could say how Rhiana & Roric might die, but those are spoilers. ^_^; »
<Rachel> <<lol ;)>>
<Rachel> <<STDs and termites!>>
<Cody> I love you too, Rahne. As a friend. And as hollow as that sounds, it is TRUE. ...I hope one day you'll see that.
<Rahne> I wanted, one morning, to wake up next to you..  I wanted to share with you everything..  I still do..  But I know I can't..
<Cody> But that's not true!
<Cody> Why can't you even listen to me...
<Cody> «ooc: Cody is ready to pull his HAIR out :p »
<Cody> «ooc: No offense :D »
<Rachel> <<then you'd look like a skinny white Sinbad. ^^>>
<Cody> «ooc: Ooh fun! »
<Rahne> What am I not seeing?  I love you..  but you don't love me..  you wish to stay friends..  I see that..
<Cody> But you didn't hear what I said...
<Cody> I love you. I love you as a friend. And that love is just as strong.
<Cody> It's a different TYPE of love, granted, but it's strong. And it's real. And you're not alone.
*** Rachel (Heather@mtw215.nf.sympatico.ca) Quit (Quit: ~ I think I'll go for a walk, maybe out in the rain, maybe let the tears roll down my face and not feel the pain...maybe think about something, maybe think about you...yeah, you can't hurt me now...you can't hold me down.. ~)
<Cody> «ooc: Gotta end in ten, please ^^;;; »
<Rahne> << I understand. ^^;  We're 20 past already. ^^; >>
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Session Close: Mon Jan 22 04:26:35 2001


Session Start: Mon Jan 22 04:27:43 2001
*** Now talking in #somrpg
*** Topic is '=- Chapter 17.2 Delicate Affection | Loc: Holy City Wendel | Time: Mana Holy Day, Afternoon | 1684 Luc -=-'
*** Set by Rahne on Mon Jan 22 03:12:59
<Cody> «ooc: Repost? ^^ »
* Rahne heads back towards the bed, to re-tuck in Cody, who's covers have gotten a little rumpled.. * Shh... Cody..
<Storen> « ow. I think ym comp may be making this a habit. hrrm. »
* Cody begins to look exhausted, but looks at her pleadingly, "Please...think about it?"
<Cody> «ooc: Sleep...soon...please... ;_; »
<Rahne> I never doubted our friendship, Cody..  it's just..
<Cody> I know...
* Rahne brushes the hair out of Cody's eyes.. * ..don't worry about it.. it's something I have to work out alone..
<Cody> Okay...
<Cody> I'll be here...
<Cody> And I...
* Cody closes his eyes, "I...am...not happy with the fact that I want to pass out NOW of all times."
* Rahne makes her way to the door, turning to face him.. * Good night, Cody.. * Rahne gently closes the door.. *
<Radien> << Cody just doesn't have any stamina. >>
<Cody> But I'll be here...if you want to let me back in..
* Cody looks at the door for a few more minutes, then sighs, "I'm sorry, Rahne. I hope you find your answer..."
<Cody> «ooc: END ^^ »
<Storen> ~~ INTERLUDE END ~~
Session Close: Mon Jan 22 05:05:08 2001